Being Me

I realized in a discipleship meeting last week that for the first time in a VERY long time--maybe ever--I feel like me. For much of my adult life, I have been a chameleon. I have changed and adapted myself to meet the expectations of others. I molded myself to be what I was told was right or the best way to be without really studying the scripture and seeking God to see who He says I should be. No more. After almost two years walking out a life that is being transformed by God's grace, I finally feel free. Free of expectations, pressure, and a "law" mentality. This was affecting every area of my life, even the clothes I chose and how I worshipped. I figured out that I was living my life a certain way because I wanted to do what was in my heart for God (lead women to love Jesus), but I did not think that I would be allowed to do it unless I followed the rules and was a "good girl" by a certain set of religious standards.

I finally feel authentically like Lara. I am moving into living life abundantly--love and grace filled. I am beginning to walk in what God has called me to do and who He has called me to be. I want to live an extraordinary life, and I think I am now in a place where I can do that.

Thank God that He is patient and teaches us lessons when we are in a place to hear them. I hope this encourages you to be YOU as God has made you and called you to be. It is true freedom in Christ.

I'm BAAAAACK

For all of my blog readers, I apologize. I realize that I totally dropped off the face of the earth without warning. Please forgive me, come back, and read my blog. (Also, leave me comments. It really does make my day.) Why the absence? I had a serious case of the blahs. I needed to focus on God, my husband, and Remnant. I didn't have a single ounce of me leftover to give...even in a blog. Plus, I didn't want blogging to be a chore that I had to do. I am on the road to recovery from the blahs and will be talking to you a lot in the upcoming weeks. Things I want to write about:

1. Discipleship

2. Remnant's first Encounter with Rod and Mary Aguillard

3. Trusting God (aka faith)

4. Friendships

5. My life plan

6. Why Jessica and Bobby should move to CA (Hhmmm okay, I won't actually devote a blog to this Jess, but I thought I should give the bride a shout out.)

7. More lessons from the puppies plus a tale of explosive diarrhea--quite possibly the most disgusting thing that will ever appear on this blog. Seriously, it will be worth reading every blog I write just to hear this gem when I am healed enough to talk about this very scarring experience.

That's all for now. I look forward to more goodness and sharing with you soon!