The One Whom Jesus Loved

I have always noticed how John referred to himself as "the one whom Jesus loved." I have heard many different takes on what he meant by that. Some people have said that he was a little arrogant or that Jesus loved John more than any other disciple.

Today, I really understand what John meant though. John was so humbled by Jesus' love for him, that he could not think of himself in any other way besides as being one whom Jesus loved. Nothing else defined him. Above everything else in his life, above the miracles, above teaching, above his personality, above the church, above his suffering, above all, he understood that he was because Jesus loved him. Everything in his life became secondary to the fact that Jesus loved him. That's how he thought of himself because it became the all consuming, overarching idea that burned in him, Jesus loved him.

How powerful is that? I want love to ravage me how it ravaged John. I am the one whom Jesus loves.

Friends & Good Hair

I just had a really fun (and tiring) weekend. The entire weekend was pretty much consumed with being involved in other people's lives...wedding showers, meals together, just hanging out, etc. It has been a really long time since I've had a weekend like that, and it felt great to be with people and just love on them and relate.

The combo of moving away from so many great friends in Indiana and me traveling alone so much for my job really left me in relationship shock. I went from people constantly to alone (or just with David) almost all of the time. I think I just went into some kind of survival mode where I thought that being alone was really normal. This weekend helped remind me that I am really a people person. I love just doing life with great people. I know that is a weird thing to have forgotten, but it happened.

When I am in town, I am going to make a much better effort at being proactive and pursuing people. I need it in order to be the best version of me.

P.S. David and I saw the Chris Rock documentary Good Hair. I highly recommend it. It was very funny, mostly clean, and totally interesting. Since I could potentially have a girl child one day who faces these hair issues, I was fascinated. Plus during college, I had a brief stint cutting African American women's hair...and I have to say that I was pretty amazing at it too.

Wedding Craze

I think I'm officially about to burst internally. Three of my best girls are all engaged with one of them about to get married very soon. I am soooo excited for all of them. It's almost a little crazy on my part, but I really cannot help it. My life with David is so incredibly amazing, more than I could ever have imagined, and I want the same experience for them. I want them to have all of the goodness that comes after the wedding too--minds out of the gutter, I mean the being married to your best friend part. (I may focus on this in a later blog, but today, it's all about the wedding.)

Things I love about weddings:

Romance

Bling

Beautiful dresses

Cake

Bling

Planning everything

Love

Flowers

Dancing

Being sentimental

Bling

Getting the hair done

Shopping a lot for all of the stuff

The vows
Bling

So, congratulations to my buddies. I'm so happy for you :)

P.S. I am a little obsessed with diamonds...trying not to be, but they're so pretty.
P.P.S. My next job will be as a wedding planner. It's decided.

Shopping

I finally did it. I went shopping. This may not seem very exciting to some people, but let's just say it's been a reeeeeaaaaallllllly long time since I have bought anything new. (Engagement+Moving to CA+Job Transitions+Higher Cost of Living+Wedding+Honeymoon+Car Repairs+Buying a House=No cash to shop)

I didn't go crazy--I just bought a few new things, so that I don't feel like a total style-less shlub as I have been feeling lately. It's nice to feel nice. The end. :)